Being wanted

There was kind of a nice unexpected phonecall last night, just as I left work. One of the agencies I'd spoken to previously but then turned down the chance of a second interview (when I decided to stay put) called. The company had more positions available (more? or they just hadn't filled it - i wonder) and had asked after me if I was available now. They even said they'd pay a little more.



It was flattering, and nice. I wasn't interested, the travel is a bit of a pain and its not really what I want. But it was definitely a nice buzz.

First day back at work

So i've decided, as part of my renewed discipline I am going to post every day, even if its just a few words or inanities.

Today was the first day back at work, tiring for that, especially as my team leader is off with a fractured ankle. I am feeling *so* lagged its almost funny. I bet I am almost over it in time to work overnight....

Yesterday I got all my holiday photos of Arizona up on the website and I was pleased with that. Some of them look pretty good I am glad to say :) I picked up a little Canon A550 while in the USA and am so pleased with it. If anyone wants to see the pics, email me.

The boy is suffering lag too. He was awake from 11.30pm til 3.30am last night and then, bless him, the poor thing fell asleep at school today. Hopefully he will have a better night tonight.

Aching

I'm very on edge. Not in a bad way just in a slightly... obessed way. I've been teased deliciously, constantly, skillfully, masterfully, delicately constantly for the last two days since the beginning of my Owner's birthday yesterday. I'm so very very on edge. Today, with a little white lacey ribbon with the beads digging into me, digging in whenever I became aroused. Making themselves so definitely felt.



How easy I slip into thoughts of cocks, stroking them, squeezing, touching, exploring... the caress, the swell, the groans. Thoughts of her voice, her words. Thoughts of the ache *there*. The need. The lust. How I have to physically concentrate on anything else. The delicious pain as the need just builds into a physical hurt that takes over.



Mmmmmm god it feels so good to hurt for her.

More blessings

Just when I begin to get my head around the flowers. Kind of. Mostly.

Today in the post another surprise. This, the long awaited quilts from my friend in California, my landlady's best friend.

Oh they are just so beautiful. I had to show the boy on the webcam as soon as I could and he was as over the moon as I am.

Two amazing gifts from two amazing women in two days. It makes me realise quite how lucky I am and how much love I've been given. Ummm, thankyou seems so tame but its all I can say :).

Blessings

I am so very very blessed.

Last night I came home from work and a special friend had sent me flowers. Me! Flowers! They were just sitting there waiting for me. Just how damn sweet can some people be? How giving? Just because they want you to feel good.



I've never been given flowers before!

Bah

Can I just say BAH at US websites that offer email gift vouchers but then don't allow you to enter a UK billing address for the credit card?



So much for best laid birthday present plans for someone's birthday tomorrow.



*growl*

Geek toys

I am such a geek!!!



I registered my own domain name on Friday
and then paid for a hosting service for it. It comes with SO many web
toys to play with, I'll be busy playing with those for months now!
Wiki's and nuke's and blog and CMS software.



It even has shell access!! Just need to decide what email address I want!



Such a complete happy happy geek...

12 days

Just 12 days til we go to Arizona!! So can't wait now, both to see my
family and to enjoy the break. Trying to plan all my trips now as its
getting manic!! Amsterdam in April. Colorado now in July and the
possibility... possibility of a stopover in Ohio if I'm allowed.
Sometime need to get the boy upto Scotland for a week too to see the
pup and my two friends.



But but but, just 12 days to go!

Catching up sleep

Last week left me kind of exhausted. The not-a-date, the hospital stayover for the boy, the evening work. Well more than exhausted. Physically shattered to the point of tears.



The first half of the week was really just trying to get over that, sleeping as best I can to get some strength back. When the physical tiredness settled a little, the emotional kicked in with avengence and I had a couple of down days where I just crawled inside a little to cope. Sleep in its broken way each night though kept me getting back into a happier place. I guess I've never realised before just QUITE how close to having no energy I run as normal, and how it just takes a little to dip me over the edge. When that happens I have to grit my teeth and push through. It does help though, when all those dark feelings come out that I know where they come from and that they will not last.



Thursday was supposed to be cooking class but I didn't get home from work til late and had a stinking headache from bad meetings at work, so I thought blow it and skipped it. I am glad I did as it gave me chance to relax. I actually slept 7hrs without waking up that night!!! Wow that felt great and I was so much happier on Friday. Haven't managed it since though :( Still waking up every two hours. Oh and I have a cold coming!!! I know I can't do everything though, so keep doing what I can to make sure I don't wear myself out :).

Calls

I'm a funny thing when it comes to phone calls. I work with phone companies but phones make me nervous. Well, talking to people on them anyway. Maybe its because you can't see the others face...



This morning a friend in the USA told me she wanted my number to call me for the first time for a chat. This put me into my instant nervous wreck mode, both excited and nervous and tongue tied, just as always. Well I let her call and it was SO nice to put a voice to a person and a face. OK, so I did my english blithering idiot thing where I ramble nervously to make sure I don't have to stop and think what I am doing... but fortunately many Americans seem to find that endearing in a furriner ;-). I have a feeling she may have found it just a tad amusing... oh the burdens i have to endure :).



But, it did leave me with a big smile on my face for the rest of the morning I spent snuggled with the boy watching a movie. It was so very very nice and unexpected to move her to the "have talked to" category and to have a voice in my head whenever I read an email or some words.



Isn't it just great how small the world is now?

More Games

The boy started playing Dungeon Keeper 2 this weekend. For some reason being an evil dungeon keeper building your own dungeon and populating it with wicked things and having creatures to boss around and occasionally zap and whip appeals to him (thats my boy!). He loves those types of games where you "build" as part of the objective, theme park world, zoo tycon, etc, all old games that are really cheap.



The nice thing about sitting with him playing though is how much he talks about it, asks questions, makes comments, cheers and shouts at the PC, so even though its a game... its a joint thing. So lovely to sit and watch and join in!